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THE LAST HONEST TRY

Read Chapter 10: The Derby

The derby against Montclar had divided Saint-Aurèle families for seventy years and produced, according to local legend, three marriages, two divorces, a broken mayoral nose, and one goat painted blue.

By Friday, every café conversation ended with the match.

By Saturday, Mayor Vautrin had announced that a win would trigger municipal approval for preliminary stadium renovation.

By Sunday, Marc wanted to strangle him.

“Politics out of the changing room,” he told Jean.

“Try telling politics.”

Lucas trained all week but remained on the bench. Marc had not told the team why. He had told Lucas one thing: no contact with Kovač, no private financial arrangements, no tactical information outside approved channels.

“If he calls?” Lucas asked.

“Record it.”

“If he threatens me?”

“Record that too.”

The plan was reckless. Marc knew it. Claire knew it. Lucas knew it most of all.

The match began under hard mistral wind.

Montclar played with spite and precision. Their scrum-half, Hugo Pradal, kicked relentlessly behind Saint-Aurèle's wings. Yannis responded with too much ambition, trying to run from places where sensible tens kicked.

At twenty minutes, Saint-Aurèle trailed 9-0.

Marc paced the touchline.

“Yannis! Territory!”

The young man waved acknowledgment, then attempted a chip over the defensive line.

Montclar caught it and nearly scored.

Marc swore.

At halftime: 12-6.

In the tunnel Yannis kicked a water bottle.

“What are you trying to prove?” Marc asked.

“That we can play.”

“Everyone knows you can play.”

“Not the clubs watching.”

Ah.

Marc understood.

A scout from Béziers was in the stand.

“You want a contract?” Marc said. “Show him you can make fifteen ordinary decisions correctly. Professionals don't get paid for highlights. They get paid for not being stupid between highlights.”

Yannis glared.

Then he nodded.

Saint-Aurèle came back through patience. Penalty. Drop goal. Long kick to the corner. A try from Baptiste after twelve phases.

With eight minutes left they led 19-15.

Then Mathieu Cazals cramped and could barely run.

Marc looked down the bench.

Lucas was already standing.

“Ready?”

“I've been ready for two weeks.”

“Listen to me.”

Lucas met his eyes.

“No heroics. No stupid penalties. No script.”

Lucas's face tightened.

“No script.”

He entered to a roar.

Three minutes later, Montclar broke midfield. Lucas made the covering tackle. Clean. Hard. Perfect.

Two phases after that, Saint-Aurèle stole the ball.

Yannis kicked it sixty metres into touch.

Marc smiled.

Montclar had one final attack. Their number eight charged from a scrum. Lucas could have competed at the breakdown. Instead, he stepped back, stayed legal, organized the line.

The referee blew for full time.

19-15.

The crowd erupted.

Lucas bent over with his hands on his knees.

Marc walked onto the pitch.

The captain straightened.

For a second, neither spoke.

Then Lucas said, “That one was ours.”

Marc nodded.

“Yes.”

It was the first victory of the season that felt clean.

That night, someone smashed every window in Lucas's workshop.

No equipment was stolen.

On the office wall, in black spray paint, were four words:

PAY WHAT YOU OWE.

The next morning, volunteers arrived at Lucas's workshop before the glazier.

Nobody had organized them. That was how Saint-Aurèle preferred to organize important things.

Baptiste brought plywood. Karim brought coffee. Two retired props brought drills and spent forty minutes arguing about screws. Even Yannis appeared, though he claimed he had only come because Marc had scheduled recovery nearby.

Lucas stood in the middle of it, embarrassed.

“You don't have to do this,” he said.

Baptiste looked up from measuring a window. “Shut up and hold the board.”

Marc watched Lucas obey.

Community was dangerous because it could be manipulated. It was also the only reason manipulation mattered.

Claire arrived with her camera and did not take a photograph.

“Why not?” Marc asked.

“Because not everything helpful needs to become content.”

“You're evolving.”

“Don't tell my editor.”

Inside the office, she noticed the spray-painted words still visible beneath cleaning solution.

“Police took samples?”

“Yes.”

“Any cameras?”

“Industrial estate camera was ‘under maintenance.’”

“Convenient.”

Lucas entered carrying coffee.

He and Claire regarded each other carefully.

“You writing about this?” he asked.

“Not unless you want me to.”

“I don't.”

“Then no.”

Lucas seemed surprised.

Claire added, “But when you are ready to talk about why it happened, I want that conversation.”

He looked at Marc.

Marc did not rescue him.

“Maybe,” Lucas said.

It was the first time he had not said no.

After the volunteers left, Lucas showed Marc a photograph on his phone: his house, taken from across the street the previous night. No message accompanied it.

“Élodie wants me to quit rugby,” he said.

“Reasonable.”

“She wants us to sell the workshop, move to her sister near Albi.”

“Also reasonable.”

“I don't want to.”

“That doesn't make it wrong.”

Lucas sat on the desk.

“What would you do?”

Marc almost answered quickly. Then he remembered how often people had mistaken certainty for strength around him.

“I don't know.”

Lucas gave a tired laugh. “Finally something you can't coach.”

“I can tell you what not to do.”

“What?”

“Don't call staying courage and leaving cowardice. Sometimes those are just names men use to trap themselves.”

Lucas looked through the boarded window at the volunteers' cars departing.

“I'll talk Monday,” he said.

“You already did.”

“No. I mean all of it.”

Marc nodded.

The clean derby win had not freed Lucas.

It had reminded him what freedom felt like.