The Barricade and the Bandage
Read Chapter 2: The Locket and the Letter
The apartment smelled of cold hearth and dust. Élise had been gone three days, maybe four—she'd lost count on the first night of fighting—and the shutters had held fast against the spring air, sealing in the staleness of a life that had stopped mid-breath. She set Marguerite down on the divan first, then locked the door behind her, turned the key twice, and pressed her forehead to the wood.
The girl was still breathing. Shallow, but breathing. The sisters at the church field hospital had done what they could: cleaned the wound, bound it tight, given her a sip of wine and a promise to pray. But the hospital was overflowing, and Élise had seen the way the nuns looked at each other when they thought no one was watching. They needed beds for the men who could still fight tomorrow. Marguerite was eleven.
Élise crossed to the window and cracked the shutter an inch. The street below was quiet—too quiet, the kind of quiet that meant snipers were choosing their windows and the federés were choosing their barricades. Somewhere beyond the rooftops, cannon fire rumbled like distant thunder that never broke into rain.
The note was on the table.
A single sheet of paper, folded once, weighted down by the brass candlestick her mother had brought from Lyon. Élise knew Jules's hand before she touched it—the way his pen bit into the paper, the careful schoolboy loops that had never quite grown up.
*Élise—*
*I came by twice. You weren't here. I don't know where you've been, and I'm choosing not to think too hard about it. But I heard the name Moreau spoken at the café this morning, and it wasn't in a good way. They're saying a schoolteacher from the Marais has been seen at the barricades. They're saying she's been treating Communards.*
*You know what Father was. You know what he'd think of this.*
*I'm not asking you to agree with me. I'm not even asking you to come home—you made your choice about that two years ago, and I've respected it. But I am asking you to live. The Versailles army is at the gates. When they come through—and they will come through—they will not stop to ask who you were treating or why. They will see a woman with gunpowder on her hands and they will hang her from the nearest lamppost.*
*There's a train at Gare de Lyon on Friday. I've arranged passage under the name Clément. Please be on it.*
*—J.*
Élise read it twice. Once for the words, once for what sat beneath them. Jules had always been the careful one, the one who inherited their father's gift for seeing which way the wind was blowing and trimming the sails accordingly. Ten years older, already balding, already a government clerk with a government pension and a government wife who wore government hats. He had never once raised his voice in anger. He had never once failed to show up when it mattered.
She folded the note and slipped it into her pocket.
Marguerite stirred on the divan, mumbling something in her sleep that might have been a name. Élise pulled the worn quilt from the back of the chair and laid it over her, tucking the edges under her thin shoulders. The girl's face was pale as candlewax, her dark hair plastered to her forehead with sweat. Her knuckles were scraped raw—she'd been carrying stones to the barricade when the shell hit. Élise had seen the whole thing from across the street. Had seen the girl go down, and had gone to her without thinking, and had kept going from there.
The locket was cold against her collarbone.
Élise touched it through the fabric of her blouse—she'd worn it every day for six years, since the morning they'd lowered her mother into the ground at Père Lachaise. A simple silver oval on a chain that had belonged to her grandmother before that. The clasp was worn soft from handling.
She unlatched it and held it open in the pale light from the window. Inside, on the left, a photograph of her mother: young, unsmiling, her dark hair pulled back severely, the way the studio photographers insisted. On the right, a tiny curl of baby hair that had faded from gold to something closer to white.
Her father's face flashed in her mind—not the stern patriarch of her childhood, but the way he'd looked at the end, when the consumption had hollowed him out and left him with nothing but his convictions. He'd been a doctor too, once. Had treated rich and poor alike, had never turned anyone away from his door. He'd voted against the Republic's surrender, had called Thiers a traitor to his face at a dinner party, and had died a month later with Jules holding one hand and Élise holding the other.
Jules thought she'd made her choice when she left the family apartment. But the truth was more complicated. She hadn't chosen the Commune, not exactly. She'd chosen the children—the ones who came to school hungry, who wore shoes with holes in them, who recited their letters with the same fierce concentration their mothers brought to scrubbing floors. When the city had risen up in March, she'd watched from her classroom window and thought: *these people are my people.*
And then the guns had started, and the guns didn't care about people.
She snapped the locket shut and pressed it to her lips.
"Forgive me, Maman," she whispered. "I'm not going to the train."
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Three miles to the west, in the Hôtel de Ville sector, Henri Valois stood at the window of the field hospital and watched the lamps being lit along the Boulevard Saint-Germain. The building had been a girls' school until three weeks ago; the chalkboards were still bolted to the walls, and someone had hung a crucifix above the door that now served as the operating theater. His hands were still trembling from the last patient—a boy of seventeen who'd had his leg shattered by grapeshot, whose screams had filled the room until the chloroform finally pulled him under.
The surgeons had taken the leg. Henri had held the boy's hand.
He was a medic, not a surgeon. His father had made that distinction clear enough often enough. *Surgeons cut, Valois. Medics comfort. If you want to matter, you'll learn to cut.* But Henri had never wanted to matter in the way his father meant. He'd wanted to heal, and healing was not the same as cutting.
"There you are."
Henri turned. Captain Devaux stood in the doorway, his uniform immaculate despite the dust of the day's skirmishes. A Versailles man through and through, Devaux had the kind of face that seemed designed for shouting orders—broad, red, with pale eyes that missed nothing.
"The boy?" Henri asked.
"Alive. They're moving him to the church ward." Devaux stepped into the room, his boots echoing on the wooden floor. "I have orders for you."
Henri's stomach tightened. "Orders?"
"You're being reassigned. There's a forward post being established at the Trocadéro—a dressing station, close to the fighting. They need someone with steady hands who can triage."
"Triage," Henri repeated. He'd done triage at Sedan, had watched men die in order of importance, had learned to look at a wound and calculate its cost in minutes. He'd hoped never to do it again.
"You've got experience. You're young, you're fit, and you've shown..." Devaux paused, searching for the word. "Initiative."
Henri's mind flashed to the Rue de Rivoli. The Communard woman in the gray dress, blood on her sleeve, her eyes fierce and direct as she'd argued with him in the middle of a firefight. She'd been tending to a child—a child on the wrong side of the barricade, a child who would grow up to hate everything Henri stood for, if she grew up at all.
He'd crossed the line to help her. He didn't quite know why. Perhaps because she'd been the only thing in that chaos that made sense.
"Thank you, Captain," he said. "When do I leave?"
"First light." Devaux moved to the door, then paused. "One more thing. Your father sent word. He wants you to write to him. Says he's concerned you've been..." Another pause, longer this time. "...compromised by sentiment."
Henri said nothing. His father was a man who used words like *sentiment* the way other men used *infection.*
Devaux left. Henri stood at the window a moment longer, watching the lamps multiply across the city. Somewhere out there—in the labyrinth of streets that lay between his position and the Commune's—was a woman whose name he'd never learned, whose face was graven in his memory. She'd been angry when the shot came. Not frightened. Angry.
He moved to the desk that had been left behind by the school's headmistress and found paper, ink, a pen. He wrote quickly, the words coming easier than he'd expected.
*Father—*
*The work is hard, and I am learning more every day. The surgeons speak highly of my calm under pressure, which I attribute to the training you insisted upon. You were right about that: a man must know his own limits before he can push past them.*
He paused. The pen hovered over the page. He wanted to tell his father about the girl with the dark hair and the frayed sleeve, about the moment he'd looked across the barricade and seen something he didn't have a name for. He wanted to say that the enemy was not what he'd been told the enemy was. That the enemy treated her wounded with the same tenderness he tried to bring to his own.
He wrote instead: *I remain confident in the justice of our cause.* It was what his father wanted to read. It was what his father would repeat at dinner parties, nodding gravely, pleased that his son had not gone soft.
Henri signed his name, folded the letter, and sealed it with wax. Then he sat back in the headmistress's chair and listened to the distant thunder of the guns.
The woman had been carrying the girl toward the church. He didn't know if they'd made it.
He didn't know her name.
He wanted to know her name.
The letter lay on the desk between them, full of lies and half-truths, and Henri understood for the first time that he was going to have to choose between the life his father had built for him and the person he was becoming in the ruins of this city.
The guns fell silent for a moment. In the quiet, he heard the first notes of a song drifting up from the street below—some soldier singing to keep himself awake, a tune about a girl left behind in another country.
Henri didn't know the words. But he felt them.
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Élise knelt beside the divan and pressed her hand to Marguerite's forehead. The fever was climbing. The sisters had done their best, but the girl needed more than prayer and wine. She needed a doctor—a real doctor, someone who could open her wound and clean it properly.
The only doctors Élise knew were on the other side of the barricades.
She touched the locket again.
Then she made her decision.
"Stay here," she whispered to the sleeping girl. "I'll be back."
She went to the door, unlocked it, and stepped out into the night.